Vanished

Worthless

I didn't think human contact was so crucial. I just want to disappear and wait the whole thing out. I wish I didn't have to experience any of this. I can't stand being rejected anymore. I'm so weak. I can't help but think that the person I am now is who I've been all along. I've just been yanked from the environment in which I felt more or less comfortable and dumped where I'm neither comfortable nor accepted. I'm like a turtle without its shell. I want to scream to them -- to tell them -- that what they see isn't who I am but what this has made me but I feel completely defenseless against their pity. I have nothing -- no one -- to hide behind. I have nothing to fall back on. I'm just nothing. No one.